My sister came to stay for a couple of days so i havent really had t ime for much other than keeping up with work!
Ive been thinking the last couple of days about the past and life. My mums not doing so good at the moment because she nos that we/her are going to have to relive the family break up and its taken my mum 8 years to get over it and build herself up. The problem is me and my sister are just starting to get ready to talk about it. Shes falling to bits and doesnt understand and i understand how hard it is for her but we have to do it.
I remember my dad telling me for years that it would be the last year he stayed with my mum. I remember telling myself and trying to believe that in a week or two things would be ok. I was still at primary school!
I remember shouting lots and lots of shouting.
I remember my mum being thrown down the stairs and being beaten.
I remember the dack door being broken in some fight.
Being told how fat i am
Discovering that an adult can be afraid.
Watching my mum crying.
Being scared that my dad would hurt my mum.
Being scared that mum would call the police.
My dad shouting at me for no reason.
My dad allowing my brother to treat me like dirt
My dad not letting me go out with my friends.
I remember being 9 years old and wishing i could be adopted!
My dad telling my mum she had to leave even though we had no where to live.
He use to take food off the table and not let us eat it if he didnt want it.
screaming and shouting. Cowering with fear and being torn. Lying in bed wonder how you chose between living with your mum or da if they do actually split up and weighing up the possitives and negatives of each.
Pulling each other down.
Wondering if this vwas normal.
Wondering what i would be like when i was older.
Not being able to tell my parents anything.
Ive been thinking the last couple of days about the past and life. My mums not doing so good at the moment because she nos that we/her are going to have to relive the family break up and its taken my mum 8 years to get over it and build herself up. The problem is me and my sister are just starting to get ready to talk about it. Shes falling to bits and doesnt understand and i understand how hard it is for her but we have to do it.
I remember my dad telling me for years that it would be the last year he stayed with my mum. I remember telling myself and trying to believe that in a week or two things would be ok. I was still at primary school!
I remember shouting lots and lots of shouting.
I remember my mum being thrown down the stairs and being beaten.
I remember the dack door being broken in some fight.
Being told how fat i am
Discovering that an adult can be afraid.
Watching my mum crying.
Being scared that my dad would hurt my mum.
Being scared that mum would call the police.
My dad shouting at me for no reason.
My dad allowing my brother to treat me like dirt
My dad not letting me go out with my friends.
I remember being 9 years old and wishing i could be adopted!
My dad telling my mum she had to leave even though we had no where to live.
He use to take food off the table and not let us eat it if he didnt want it.
screaming and shouting. Cowering with fear and being torn. Lying in bed wonder how you chose between living with your mum or da if they do actually split up and weighing up the possitives and negatives of each.
Pulling each other down.
Wondering if this vwas normal.
Wondering what i would be like when i was older.
Not being able to tell my parents anything.
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does it feel better to let it out? cause if you have been holding all that in no wonder your lost, i understand that this may be upsetting for your mum but to get yourself better you need to tackle these issues and im sure given time you mum will understand and support this
wow its good u can start to get it out though hun. sorry u went through this shit xx