What does it matter if I take laxatives? My sister is mega ill and its all my fault because I didn’t help her. We chatted for ages the other night and I didn’t do anything or really say much to help her and then both my dad and mum phoned and asked what they could do to help her and I didn’t say anything I told them to ask her and that it wasn’t my place to say. If only I had said something maybe she wouldn’t have over dosed. I no she isn’t critically ill but it doesn’t matter, she still did it. What do I do now. She wants me to come and stay with her but I cant really. She isn’t on her own my mum and dad are there to look after her. I should have done more coz shes the only one that’s tried to understand my eating disorder. Im ruining everything im slowly loosing my job and I really don’t want to go in tomorrow which if I don’t will make things worse. Ive not done anything to help my sister even though I new she needed help. She says the same things I use to say at her age. Its really worrying. I want my laxatives really bad right now but I cant over dose on them coz that’s not gona help anything but I really want out I cant cope with all this anger. I don’t want to die but I want out. Im so tired of watching my family fall apart watching people I love hurt being ripped apart. I feel physically sick!