I dont know what to say. Ive run out of words. Ive put on weight i feel huge not just fat but huge!!! Im tired. i just cant do this anymore. I hate being this way. Ive started to get fidgety now coz i havent had any laxatives today. I need to go get my hot water bottle. Ahhhhh im so fat FAT FAT FAT FAT i feel so bloated yet so thirsty but i cant put anymore in my body ive not stoped eating. Im so tired. ive just written a 2 page email to my friend about all thats gone on this last week - well since wednesday! im gona go sleep now x x x