So its finally the end of the week and im still alive! These last 2 weeks have been hecktic and theres loads i could say that ive not put in here but then that would just be dwelling on things and i need to move on. At the moment im really struggling with trusting people. This week at work they decided that i could no long do any face-to-face youth work and that i had to stay in the office and do admin until i could prove that i was eating 3 meals a day and they were going to review my situation in 3 weeks time so no pressure Em but you have 3 weeks to change if you want to go back to youth work and not stay in the office. Its so not gona happen - well not the way they want it to. They have also said that i should keep a food diary which isnt a bad idea, it might help so im gona give it ago. Yesterday i felt really sick and my line manager just told me it was because i hadnt eaten but i was convinced it wasnt, it felt more than just not eating. Anyway i was asleep an hour before i woke up chucking my guts up!!!  Today i still feel rough and have slept most of the day still feeling sick so i hope its just maybe that i havent eaten rather than this gross sickness bug thats going round that has put people in bed for days! could also be because of the laxatives i guess although i didnt take any yesterday. Anyway what ever it is i think i should go get an early night coz ive had lots of late ones this week which hasnt helped and im exhausted