I NEED LAXATIVE AND I NEED THEM NOW!!!! I got told today that i couldnt work anymore unless i stay in the office and do paper work despite the dr saying i was fit to work and should be working. Im so mad. Im going to my friends for tea tonight which has also been making me feel a bit anxious so ive just had a massice binge on sweets, chocolate, nuts, coco pops and lots of other cereal all mixed together! wot and idiot - i didnt want to eat in the 1st place let alone binge especially on that sort of food! im chewing my tooth brush to stop myself from cutting so i might have to get a new one its a bit crushed now. Im so fidgety coz i havent had any laxatives today but my tummy is so sore and not emptied from the last nights yet but i need them so bad. im gona go get some. i need to get to tesco!
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Your employers are horrible cunts then
hope you had a nice evening
yummmmmmmmm...... coco pops. i had butties, strawberry cheesecake and choccy for brekkie today and thats all so far! lol (that was b4 9am)
I know the draw to laxatives (see my journal)..so far I\'ve made it just over 24 hours without them. Maybe, what works for me, is just not eating the day after laxatives, except some coffee. That, generally, empties the remainder of what was in my stomach out and I feel ok that there is nothing inside of me. In terms of your friend\'s for tea, maybe plan ahead. If you don\'t want to eat, then plan out what you\'ll say at the house, i.e. \"I\'m not too hungry, but I would love some tea.\" The tea will fill you up, but that way you can avoid the sweets. I keep a hair elastic on my wrist, so if I feel compelled to nibble on something (generally fruit....all I really eat are fruits and vegetables, lol), I snap my hair elastic on my wrist - that serves as a reminder to me that I don\'t have to eat, and that I DON\'T want to feel compelled to take laxatives. I hope this helps you get through today love :o)
sorry you are having a rough time today.just try and take one day at a time.i would rather buy you 100 toothbrushes if it helped you to stop cutting.thinking about ya love anthea xx