i just want to cry and cry and cry. how something so simple become such an issue and ruin everything. im hungry but just cant face the thought of having food in my mouth. i hurt so much and its all my fault if i just ate it would all be over and i could move on. i have no fight left in me 2day. and i no that wen i get to work there will be no young people and i would have driven all that way for nothing!!! My line manager has let me down again and next week ill be put in a club to lead it with staff that ive never met before with no support again and no publisity so no1 will come and then they will wonder why. im not sure i can do this much longer keep picking up the pieces. i just want to cry i feel so numb and empty i have nothing left in me. all i want is a chance. i just want to scream to cry to sleep to succeed just no fight left.