i want to cut! but what would that achieve? only prove that i can cope! great. i need help but dont no what to do. i dont even really no what i want help with. If i eat i wont want to stop then ill make excuses how its ok to eat bad things like cake and buscuits and chocolate then ill get fat again! but i cant go on everything is falling apart and there is nothing i can do about it. ive worked so hard but for what an ed and scared arms! i dont even have it in me to cry anymore i just feel so numb and tired. when im a little more awake ill tell you all what happened. Oh crap such a busy day today and im so flippin tired. i am so not going to the meeting tonight i really just cant be bothered oh well that will just give them more to talk about