Im feeling real bad. I feel ill and really want to cut. I went to see my saragate parents this evening and had dinner with them. They cooked my favourite lasange and hot bread and i usually eat it til i burst - i mean like 3rd helppings but today i found it hard just to eat 1 helping. and now i just want to take loads of laxatives to get rid of it. since i have eaten it my stomach has been churning and ive felt sick i just need to get rid of it. Ive taken at least 12 laxatives since monday maybe slightly more and the box says no more than 1 per day. I had to eat a meal thos evening coz i was out at a friends and when i got back i took 2 more tablets and now i want more but dont have any but really badly want them. I think i have a problem. I tried to tell teh doctor but couldnt find the words to say, she already thinks im a freak coz i scrap my arms. what do i do - apart from stop taking the tablets!