Well i had my intitial counselling appointment this morning. I came out smiling!!! she was really nice and didnt make me talk about anything that i didnt want to talk about. She got me to fill in a questionnaire about my thought and feelings and stuff like that then she explained the marking system for it then we talked about some of the answers and boxes i ticked, which was still hard but easier than just trying to talk to her coz she asked questions and gave me space to say what i wanted to say and she didnt dig or try to expain how i was feeling. It was good.