Today has been so hard. Ive felt sick all day and had to force myself to eat this evening. Ive felt sick since sunday and have only been eating once a day in the evening coz i just cant face food. Ive been so exhausted today. I had to go to this launch thing today with my supervisor and i just didnt have the energy to talk to her and certainly didnt want to socialise with other people. She must have thought i was being really off and weird, but i just couldnt do it today i just wanted to hide away at home. Winter is definatly on its way coz ive been so cold all day and not been able to warm up. I feel asleep on the sofa under my duvet this afternoon, i was so warm and snuggly under there but then i had to get up in the cold and make tea before i went back out to work in the rain!!! I just want to hide away. My teeth hurt aswel i dont no if thats to do with the tablets but they really hurt when i chew. And some dick that i went out with like when i was 17 keeps msning me telling me he loves me ive not seen him since then so how can he love me he doesnt even no me!!! i certainly dont love him!  oh yeah and i had this really horrible gream last night that after i told my manager about my SI and she said it was fine so long as it didnt conflict with my work. Anyways in the dream she called to see how i was and i was having a bad day feeling low and not coping with the SI and she decided to sack me because she was worried. I feel really worried now that she might decide that im not coping and tell me i cant work till im over it and not doing it anymore!