Your not alone.....thats what people keep telling me. Ill support you what ever you decide! It just goes to show that they have no idea or understanding and that I am alone in this!!! I have to go back to see the doctor 2morro and i dont want to go. I dont want to see her and i dont want to talk to her. I texted my friend and told her and she was like well i thought you wanted to get better?! so i said that i did and do want to stop. Then she sent me a message saying that she would support me whatever i decided to do. Yeah right!!! like she would support me cutting. I can just see it now, suppoting what i do whilst im cutting!!! And then yesterday she gave me a book and said that i should read it coz it will help me quit cutting followed by the comment 'but i dont think its demonic!' I tolde her what that guy said so she obviously agress! ARGH Im just sooo mad and feel so crap and want to cut! I love her really and i no deep down that she is only tring to help and its not really her im mad at just mad at everything. And i dont believe any one when they say oh i no how you feel coz they dont!!! Or if they do please tell me coz at the moment i dont have a clue!!! Im so tired one minute im laughing and feeling good the next i just want to cry ive got a head ache all the time and sometimes just dont want to get out of bed so please if you can tell me how im feeling then please share! I want to get rid of all this i hate feeling this way. I feel like my life is a lye at the moment. I spend my time covering my back so people wont find out. Im scared im gona loose everything, that people will find out and that they will be disapointed and wont want me anymore or they will let me still work but not let me do anything just incase i cant deal with it or they will just sideline me! Im so confused so unsure of whats going to happen. Ims o stupid so dumb nsajklsxknxnkmxskmnxm ARGH ARGH ARGH. I just hate it.............................