My head is spinning its like wirl pool going on in there. Its just going round and round and i cant concentrate on anything. Its completely empty there is nothing in my mind its been cleared out by the wirl pool. I want to scream and shout and let it all out but i dont no what i want to scream and shout about. If i could get into my mind to find out what was going on then i could sort it out but i cant. Its all gone its all just going round and round but i cant get it to stop i cant even argue with it. i feel so small like a grain of sand. i want to sleep but i dont have anything in my mind to do that. I need my thought back. I need to cut. I no that if i cut my thoughts wont come back they have gone for now. Before if i cut i would come back to normal i might feel abit bad after but now cutting doesnt quite make it, almost like its a waste of time coz i need something more. this so so strange im just sat in my room the CD player is on but i cant really hear it even tho its loud. Its my new cd i got today but i cant remember what it is and im just looking round like ive never been here before but its my room. I feel so empty like im not really here and nothing in my mind. Sleep is taking over my eyes they just want to close but its still early. i need to harm but im not sure i can concentrate enough or think how to slowly giving in to my eyes cant type anymore energy to move even my fingers is going so im gona go before it goes complete;y