The walk wasnt so bad yesterday. Well in fact it cheered me up big time and was just want i needed really. some kid threw one of those hard berries and it hit my arm right in the middle of one of my cuts!!! it hurt so much and the other people i was walking with just laughed coz i was making such a fuss but they didnt no why it hurt so much so i just laughed with them! And i didnt harm last night which is good but tonight although i dont really have any urges i kinda feel i need to. Im gona have a shower in a bit to take my mind off it. Ive tons better today and found myself laughing hysterically at silly things which is really good back to my old self. I just feel so good. I hope this feeling stays. I slept for 12 hours last night so i dont no if thats why. I found it hard sleeping at the moment. Ive never been a big sleeper and wake up loads during the night but recently ive just not been sleeping well at all. It hard feeling so good yet wanting to harm at the same time! its like a battle to win over my emotions. Tomorrow im gona get up and go for a walk then put on my nice new top i bought today and my denim skirt that i havent wore for ages that i love so much and then chill before work. I figure if i wear nice comfy clothes ill feel good. Ow my top is this colour and its really long!!!
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I always seem to have a good day when I dress up and loko the way I want to. :) Hope everything works out for you. :)