Im crap. Full stop end of sentance!!! I feel crap i look crap i feel sick coz i just ate 2 chocolate biscuits and a chocolate milkshake at the speed of light. My friend phoned me today. She was my mentor whilst i was at uni and i havent spoken to her since the end july. So she rang today to find out how i was getting on with my job and whether everything had worked out and i now have 3 part time jobs so i will be working pretty much 5 nights a week and 5 afternoons. Admitidly i only get paid for 17hours a week but that pays like £180 (about) a week so its not like i need much more than that. And she was concerned that i wasnt working enough! ahe thinks i need to get another job to fill in the gaps. People seem to think that if i work all hours of the day im less likely to SI!!! Its the dumbest thing ever. Maybe i should get another job! FOr the last 2yrs whilst i was studying i worked 7days a week! i was suppose to do in a week 10hrs church work (i usually did 20hrs average)  4hrs community (between 6-10 depending on what was going on) 2days a week in lectures. (they were in london so i had to get up at 4.30am to catch the train and wouldnt get home till at least7.30pm) then 12hrs private study. all summing up to between 50 - 60hrs a week!!! so yeah i did enjoy being busy but where has it landed me?! Being busy isnt going to cure my SI! I didnt tell her this coz ive got to the point where they no best and what do i no! im only the one with the problem! im not sure what i said on the phone tho. As far as i could tell it was all really possitive but when she said goodbye she sounded quite feed up. She didnt ask about my SI but im sure she will or she will ask my other friend that knows! Why do people insist on giveing advise on things they have no idea about! And why is she so mad at me?