I went to the doctors today for the 1st time. I was really scared. She was ok about it but seemed a bit stressed like she didnt no what to say or do. She gave me some cream for my cuts but said they werent infected or anything and i have to go back in 2weeks to show her again. I got the number of a counsellor but she was like he will probably say that he wont see me coz its self harm related. What was the point in that?! If he wont see me then i have to call her and she will either see me herself which seems a bit odd or she will refer me to a psychiatrist. After all the stresses of this morning going to the doctors it hasnt really helpped with the harming and now ive got my urges back. Im so tired aswell just completely exhausted.