Someone once said to me that you make your own decisions in life. You either choose to do something or not and some are good decisions and some arent so good. So what happens when you make a bad decision? Well you have to deal with it for the rest of your life! This same person also said you can either chose to cut or to do something different. Im so confused. I really wanted to cut this morning but couldnt coz i was out and now that im back i feel ok and got over the urges but all i can think is that you can either cut or chose not to. I guess it makes sense we are all in control of our emotions and can choose how we deal with them but it just seem a fair statement. If i had been home this morning i would have cut not out of choice but because i had to! Surely (maybe im wrong. If so please correct me) none of us choose to harm its something that we feel we have to do. I havent spoken to one person or seen a comment that says i love harming myself!  Also just because im not sure about conselling does that really mean i dont want to stop??? I hate what i do and wish i didnt do it. Am i just kiddin myself?!