My Story...

It all started 4 years ago... when i was 11. I lived in England and was very happy with my life, one day, my parents felt that they had to move to Malawi, a country in Africa, to help orphans. I was torn. I had to say goodbye to everything... My home, family members, friends... every little thing I ever loved. I was so sad and completely against going to this new alien country. But we moved there none the less...
 
I met a family here the day i arrived. They were so kind. They were even brittish like me, i could totally relate to them. After a year, they were my closest friend. My best friends. They were so amazing, and slowly, I started to feel like i belonged here. I didnt feel left out, i had a great house, friends... life was good. I was even pretty close with a girl in that family... Then came the day.... one of the worst days ever. They left. They had to move back to England. Once again. I was torn apart. They were the only friends i had here. The only people i didnt feel lonely with. I could be in a room full of people and feel lonely... but not with them, they were incredible... but they left.... I was all alone... I felt like i had lost everything.
 
1 Year later... just as i was starting to feel better about life... My closest sister left me... to go back to england, she was finally old enough to escape this place... It might not seem like much, but it hurt like hell... :/
 
After another year. I feel broken. But then i met this girl. She saved me from depression. She was my hero... after some time, we got pretty close, eventually i just couldnt keep it inside of me anymore!!! It told her how much i loved her, how special she made me feel and how important she is to me, she was so shocked!! i thought i had blown it!! But then she turned to me and said. Joel. I love you too :) It was amazing!! I had never felt better in my whole life. A girl actually loved ME!! not some other guy. me! I was so happy. I didnt feel lonely, i started to make more friends because of her. but then... something must of happened.. im not sure. after 8 months. she just.... stopped loving me. i didnt do anything wrong, i was so loyal and true to her! never cheated her once. I couldnt even think of being with another girl, the thought made me sick. I was begging her to tell me why. crying my eyes out.... she just turned away... and said.. "i just dont love you like i used to" I was blown away... i could even speak. My eyes were wet. i just cried... and she walked away.. for the 4th time... my heart was crushed. She doesnt even talk to me anymore. I have lost everything. She was really all i had and wanted, and just like that. she was gone. She told me i'd survive, but really, i didnt want to survive without her. I cry myself to sleep everynight. But i have no chance, i cant win her back. But it doesnt change the fact that i love her.
 
Even my new found friends are becomeing distant... i have no one left. Im... broken. And it hurts so much. I feel so lonely every second of the day. I cant take this anymore!!! I don't see people that can speak my language.. like... never!! Im alone. I have no friends. No girl that i love... no life. Im lost... and it hurts more than i can explain. :( Im 15 now. This is my story :/ any advise? :(