19 days sober today

Im 19 days sober today. everything is a little better. finally came up with my rent money, thank god. that was seriously stressful but i didnt go buy alcohol to feel sorry for myself, like I would in the past. I failed 2 training for 2 jobs with west. the 2nd one was depressing me because i was actually excited to do that job. So that was sad. and thats money Im not making now. and still stuck doing mainly webcam and pso, which kind of sucks because I am not getting the traffic that I need to even make it worhtwhile. A non adult job would be much better at least for the guaranteed steady check. so I was sad when I failed the 2nd test for west. I can only pray they send me another job.  But I didn't drink that problem temporarily away. I just faced it. Now I will apply for convergys and hope to get hired with them. they are a permanant job. so that would be very helpful and I will look and apply for other jobs. I will try to apply for 4 and see what happens. something has got to give. I cant just keep living pay check to pay check and barely getting by. cant hardly even do anything outside of pay for a roof and feed us. then thats it. God please bless me with an abundance of money so that I not only have more than enough to pay ALL my bills and debts, but plenty left over to save money as well as buy things we need and want and pay off my license and buy a car and a houise! amen.