all of this is so new to me but in a way it really isn't. i know ive always had a struggle with food weather it was eating too much or not enough. im just so diguested with everything about myself right now. the only thing im concerned with besides Jayden is obsessing with my weight and what im eating. i know i need to take care of my self for Jayden cause if i dont how will i be able to take care of her but its something way stronger then my will and mind. i hate that when i step on the scale (which is about 3-5 times a day) and dont see what i want its brings on the urge even more. im not sure if its something that will pass and ill get over or if im really starting a problem.