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I work in the road building industry which means I work up to 15 hours a day Mon to sat and only have Sundays off. I'm in the gravel pit and I'm the only female. It's hard for me to be around some of the guys. I've been here for 9 years and one would think that it would get easier after time but it is not getting easier. The last month has been hell for me at work with have flashback and not sleeping and eating well at all. And to top it off I was told they are going to extend the hours for the semi's by a hour. So for me that would be extending the hours to 2. I HATE MY JOB. I need the money but I can't go on like this much longer. I stopped smoking 11years ago and I want one so bad and I've been drinking more then I use to. I'm so frustrated with everything I don't know if I'm coming or going.
 

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JOYHOLY
JOYHOLY

YOU KNOW SOMETHING,I AM AMAZED AT YOUR COURAGE AND STRENGTH,WORKING SO HARD ,YOU ARE AMAZING,SUPPORTING YOURSELF,AND SO STRONG ON THE TEMPTANTION OF SMOKING,RESIST IT ,YOU HAVE MADE IT SO FAR DON\'T LET IT BOTHER YOU..WELL DONE..AS FOR YOU JOB MAYBE IS TIME FOR YOU TO MAKE CHANGES,IF IT MAKES YOU STRESSED AND UNHAPPY,START LOOKING AROUND FOR ANOTHER JOB,WORKING SO LONG HOURS IS TOO MUCH, YOU NEED TIME FOR REST AND TAKING CARE OF YOURSELF, AS FOR DRINKING ,BELIEVE ME IS NOT GOING TO HELP ONLY DAMAGE YOUR HEALTH AND LIVER, I KNOW ABOUT ALCOHOL ,I HAVE LIVED ALL MY LIFE NEXT DOOR TO DRUNKS, UNBELIEVABLE,FROM ONE PLACE I MOVE TO ANOTHER AND WHAT I GET 2 MORE DRUNKS,OF COURSE THEY LIVE IN DENIAL,YES I KNOW THE EVIL OF ALCOHOL, A GOOD FRIEND IS KILLING HIMSELF BY DRINKING, TO BE HONEST I NO LONGER CARE,HIS WIFE IS A GOOD FRIEND AND I TOLD HER TO BE PREPARED, SOMETIME AGO ,SO SHE IS, AND NOW HE HAS DIABETES AND GOES ON DRINKING, AFTER A TIME ONE JUST NO LONGER CARE..BUT I CARE ABOUT YOU,AND I KNOW ABOUT THE FEELINGS AND NIGHTMARES ,AND ABUSE,SO YOU CAN SHARE WITH ME..LOVE AND HUGS LUCY..