sad

not much to put on, i am really tired and sad. dono why but things are not going well at this time of space. memories, lonelyness, work, depresion, anxicty, so many things in mind to do>...tired of being human, wana to be god or an angel,,,so much stupidity, hate life hate is all, wish things change or i die,,,missing my MOM so mucj i wish she was still alive the best thing ever happened to me...i wish i can fly to this fucking GOD and kick his ass, cut his dick and roll it back to his mouth and make him swallow it.  why the fuck he took my mom,,why u fucking moraaaaaaaaaan u created this fucking world and now take away what we love and what we have a little a tiny bit of happinesss....i wish that i am in command of this bloody god and make him suffer of his mom,,,and sisters and all he loves,,,so much pain and misery is holding me down,,kill,,,,hate,,kill myself,,,hate ,,,hate,,,hate,,,,hate,,,i wish that things i could have dne to change my stupid life....to much in pain,,had really enough with daily drinking and suffering...when i am going to die when when when>????????has enough or 9 to 5 job???had enough of traveling every day on the same route,,,,had enough of going o he same office every day...meeting same pplll,,if i dont have my best friend at workkk, i would have left this place,,,my friend make me happy all day....stupid talks and we giggle and laugh....wish i am GOD and can change all about my lifewell so many things and so small life hate it hate ie hate hate hathatehatehatehatesufferingpainmiseryhatekillmuct diemust diehatehatesufferingsufferingwana give up drinkinghate myselfhate itstop cuttingstop itstop cutting