MONDAY AUGUST 27 2007

My boss came back from a two week vacation, today is her first day back!!! I had to manage my anxiety big time!!! I am afraid of authority figures, fear thoughts of them being angry at me and showing their disappointment by yelling at me flood my mind. I talked back to these thoughts and reminded myself that there is nothing to worry about. Everything had gone smoothly while she was gone and she is a very reasonable and controlled person. 

Results: Everything went well. She asked me how it all went I said fine and asked her about her vacation. I tried to listen carefully to what she had said and tried to comment appropriately. Later she asked me how my son is doing. I worried about talking a mile a minute and taking up her time while she was trying to work but I did not let that stop me from talking to her. 

AT THE COFFEE SHOP: I went there to relax during my lunch break. The owner started to talk to me a mile a minute about being kind to others and his philosophy of life. The problem is I don't understand half of what he is saying to me!!! BUT I DID NOT RUN AWAY!!! I decided to stay and I tried to talk to him as best I could. A perfect stranger joined the conversation and I spoke to him as well for at least 10 minutes. When I left we were both smiling!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE I TALK TO HIM!!