Depression, now has phased into a state of indifference; circumstances & their respective aftermaths seem to have predetermined outcomes; just following the daily course in zombie-like drudgery..Routines & miniscule chores now are performed lackadaisically - if at all...anxiety's been restrained by anti-depressant but it's anesthetized all other emotions, probably the genesis of the zombiness.. perhaps stresses from the emotional & intimate distances of (soon-to-be-former) significant other since declared independence, is a significant contributor..
Relief from this neutral-like disposition will take quantum-sizable efforts..summoning motivation to persevere depletes most the energy needed for daily survival..
Relief from this neutral-like disposition will take quantum-sizable efforts..summoning motivation to persevere depletes most the energy needed for daily survival..
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I am so sorry you are suffering so. Please accept these comforting huggs.
I hear you and I m so sorry you are having such a bad time. I have mentioned the weekends seem especially tough for you, and my guess is the holidays don\'t help... do they help anyone? Feeling terrible at times and like an automaton is familiar.
You are on the right road, seeing survival as the goal. I wish I could take you out to a nice lunch somewhere, or make great suggestion that would distract and refresh your spirit., something that could call forth some enthusiasm or at least mild interest. I find it a struggle to engage too.
My hope would be that you will do something nice for yourself today, care for yourself in some fashion that gives you a bit of engagement and satisfaction.
I am with you .
Its the most unwonderful time of the year when you are supposed to be cheery and enjoying the warm interaction with circles of friend and family.
I think you are on the right track simplifying each day if possible, doing only what is necessary until you can restore your energy.
Have you been able to find a new therapist yet? This might be helpful for you to get that one on one support.
Hoping you are still working on the goal you told me about in your pm.
Taking things one day at a time is a good start.
Keep your eyes and heart open today for even just one little thing that will give you a bit of peace and happiness.
One little thing is worth more than diamonds and gold!!!