Therapy?

I have seemingly mastered the art of reclusiveness; expressing thoughts from casual questions are cautiously guarded with precision - I stumble, at times, during my scheduled sessions, for clarity as the therapist attempts to be the interpreter of my thoughts and the voice of reason..Unfortunately, my desired venting rarely coincides with scheduled appointments (I've only honored to avoid monetary penalties).  With it being unsynchronized, I am unmotivated to participate & left feeling violated as a result of the additional intrusiveness from the 'analyst'..I have thus momentarily suspended therapy to re-evaluate it's original purpose & proposed benefit going forward..

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john12as
john12as

What if you wrote down your venting and then brought it in to your therapy session and read it aloud to your therapist? Therapist will likely be better able to help as they gather information over time and see patterns. With limited data, can\'t really help.
john12as
john12as

If you are feeling violated, that is a red flag and may need a new therapist you feel safe with?
boydie
boydie

I think John has good ideas. Maybe you aren\'t comfortable with your therapist.The idea of you writing when inclined and emailing or sharing later is a good one. You are expressive when you write and I realize verbal stuff is not comfortable for you. This might be a good way to get your \"stuff\" out there with less discomfort for you? I know you have long been miserable although I am not entirely clear on what triggers and upsets you in particular, aside from the obvious and general.
I wish I had seen this earlier.... :-(
I am with you....
noodlebg
noodlebg

Sent you a pm, boydie expressed my thoughts to a \"T\". I hope it will be a
viable option for you!!!
One minute at a time if that\'s all you can handle, that\'s ok...sometimes that\'s
all I can muster my own self....
Kindmirrow
Kindmirrow

Wow - I missed this entry. Seems like I got caught up in my own world (+ DS has not always worked for updates).

To offer (I hope!) some good advice:
(1) It\'s probably way hard but try to be as direct with your therapist about your percieved interaction as you are here. Based on their reaction and your sense that might give you a greater amount of data to make a good judgement.
(2) Or .. Tell them that the trust and comfort level is not happening and that you intend to seek a therapist who you can feel that with.

That\'s right off what I would suggest.