Birthday...

Today's my birthday!  As of last week I wasn't sure if I'd be here to write this...Met with the Psycholigist and I will start a brand new med today; will see where this leads.  My efforts are still for my son whom I love very much.  I don't want him going down my same path later in life and want to be here to stear  him away! 
I am still on middle ground - a twilight zone existence: scared to die, and to afraid to live...