Obligation

My life exists solely for others - not for me; I feel an OBLIGATION to be here not a desire to be here.  If left up to me, I wouldn't be here...

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mal66
mal66

I hate this life I\'ve been assigned!!! I don\'t see the purpose (at all) of being here...
mal66
mal66

I HATE ME!!!
mal66
mal66

It\'s not a matter of \'if\' anymore; it\'s a matter of when. My reasons for being here are strictly specific to my son; but he can\'t keep me here forever. If you don\'t love yourself or life and are miserable, it\'s a hard sell to be here only for someone else. How can you learn to love yourself if you\'ve never been taught?
cyn70
cyn70

I can relate, but I will use the same words you left for me, stay strong. Self love can come in small spurts by doing something for you, like escaping somewhere through music and reading.
mal66
mal66

I\'ve remained here strictly for others for quite sometime; I just don\'t have the will anymore. I\'m very, very tired and want to rest. I\'ve come here (these boards) to try to save others and encourage them to go on. That\'s the least I can do with whatever remaining time I have left. I believe that I\'m too far gone to be saved...
cyn70
cyn70

Thats okay. For every day you make it though, and days you doubt yourself, that\'s me believing for you from my side of the world.

If being there for others is a positive, then that\'s something to hold on to.
mal66
mal66

Thnx for the words of encouragement; I enjoy helping people especially from places I\'ve been at. I hate seeing others in pain...
mal66
mal66

cyn70,
I hate being alone, as I\'m sure others are; but I\'m terrified of it. Maybe it\'s a manifestation from a past life. My marriage is on the rocks and I\'m really not at peace (just the opposite!) with the pending outcome...
Kindmirrow
Kindmirrow

I'm glad your here and understand that left to our own devices without caring for others -- including four-legged beings we all can make BIG BAD choices. I feel motivated to move up from the muck when I can see my cats are looking concerned and acting out. I don't question that we need each other although many times I don't like that.