Still here....

Wow does the time fly even when you're not having fun.  I can't believe I haven't updated in almost a year.  Especially when I still come on DS regularly for support.  You all are so great.  So much to go through.  I did file for divorce last October, and am still pushing, pushing....  My stbx is great at withholding info just to piss me off.  Then he acts all innocent/nice guy.  I'll never forget googling passive/aggressive and reading about my life!  One thing is for sure, I have no regrets about separating.  I miss nothing about him.  Sad after 27 years, huh? 
The kids all seem to be adapting.  2 college boys who keep in touch with both of us.  High school girl living with me who is absolutely wonderful!  Not sure how long I can keep this big house up.  With kids back and forth, and too many pets, I don't see me moving in the near future.  My divorce court date is Oct 12th, so at least there is a date on the calendar. 
On a personal side, I have been getting to know a nice guy that knows I can't commit until after the divorce.  He's been very patient, but I've been 100% honest.  I'm still not ready for a new relationship.  I need to live with just myself. (I learned that from you'all !)  Anyway, I'm still here and appreciate you guys alot.  thanks for the support!