Tired....
I just want to say thank you for your words of encouragement, hugs, etc... I truly hope the best for you and that you don't feel like me. I'm tired being sick and in pain with no doctor and no medicine. I'm tired of wanting to cry all the time and feeling like nobody wants to be bothered with my problems. I feel like a burden and I'm tired of it. I have no income and no transportation either. I am tired of being in this place and all I want to do is disappear. I try to be happy but I am not, I am alone and I just feel tired of it all. I try to be positive and it doesn't help. I just want to get rid of everything and leave. people claim to be your friend and really don't have time for you. family is too busy judging you for the past to be interested in your present situation. someone may care if I disappear, which seems crazy since they don't while I am still here. God forgive me for feeling this way.
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Sweetie You need to know we have all had low points, you just have to out wait it. I don\'t recall where you are but surely your town or county has someone who can help you get some medical help. You have 2 sons, lean on them. Figure it is payback for the years they depended on you. Please take care of yourself. Trish
I am sorry to here you feeling so low ......I can understand....how you can feel so tired of being sick ......but hang on ...and keep fighting .......get your family .to help and don\'t feel like a burden that might be difficult.....but you need to find help ware you can get .. .... and even if you do feel like a burden this is your life we are talking about ....and family is susposto be there to help you .... running away unfortunately doesn\'t make things easer it makes things harder ........because you will be still feeling the same just in a place you are not familiar with and people you don\'t know .....it will be worse .......there must be help lines you can call see if they know if there is some ware you can get help ............keep fighting ....putting one foot in fount of the other ...live one day at a time ......I remember times when I had to live one hour at a time ......I don\'t know if you go to church of believe in god ........but some churches have .someone you can talk to or a group you can join ...to help you .........it is time to dig in .......and get the help you need .....ware ever you can find it .......being in here is a very good start ...........something we all need to do is talk .....everything that has ever hurt you has to come out ....or it will just keep hurting you more and more ...........I learned this the hard way .....I would never talk ........and I ended up in the hospital .....I couldn\'t function ..I couldn\'t talk I was crying but not making any noise and I couldn\'t look any one in the face .......they gave me ect because I was going down to far to fast ...and meds were just not going to do it .......I never want to go there again .....so I talk .....even though I will have to be on meds the rest of my life now ....and they can\'t get me back up to ware I should be ....I want to be here it only took me 50 years to accomplish that .....so never give up .....now I have a life .......and although you can\'t see it now you will to .........I also suffer from chronic migraines and very bad motion sickness ....I have to do my living around the worst of the migraines ....I know it is hard to live with pain .....but it can be done ............................I hope you find the help you need ...in the mean time ...you have a family here ....and I am here for you ...any time you want to talk to me just send me a message what ever we talk about will stay between the two of us ...........take good care of your self ....be kind to your self ......I keep you in my prayers ...god bless