Ok - I have had all I can take.  Was suppose to go to court three weeks ago, his lawyer out of town.  The court date before the one missed - the judge said he would set support at that time (the time we did not go).  Thought we were going to court on the 31st - no - not until the 7th.  Called my lawyer today and asked her how I was suppose to take care of my children.  I have no money left in the bank, get paid next Tuesday and He does not have to give me anything to help with our basic needs as we never met in court.  I asked her what I was suppose to do?  She said his lawyer was in court today and would see what he would do.  I already know - nothing.  Can anyone tell me when a man decides after 23 years that he wants not responsibility and to just have fun, finds a someone 10 years older than him who is well known for using men and destroying families to get what she wants then leaves them in her wake - why am I the one who is scraping and fighting for our children and their needs.  Why is the criminal protected and the others left behind have to fight so hard.  I am just so sick and tired.  Went to our Aunts funeral today (his aunts) everyone very supportive of me except his mother - we never spoke - she is helping him as she want him to have our property and house.  Had a sh@@@y day at work after the funeral, just wanted to quit my job today.  Dont need anymore turmoil.  But that would not be good.  So I didnt...lol  With every breath I have - me and the children will remain in our home as we have, alone, for the past 4 months.  When this is over, I will have plenty of money to put myself through school, take care of the house and the kids, and use all of my retirement in the process - but whatever it takes.  I guess I will just start my retirement over.  GOD - I absolutely hate this...want it done before I break in half.  AHHHHHH - just want to say F it so bad....the easy way out I know...but how much fight does a person have......my shoulders are heavy from the burden.....and the kicker...my stbx told me up until the week he left how blessed we were, how we had it all, how we were the luckiest....and I looked at him and said  "I know that Glenn, who are you trying to convince.....?"  I never saw it coming........23 years.......happy years.....and threw away for a 51 year old piece of trailer trash....GOD - ok.......sorry - I am done......just feeling overwhelmed..tomorrow is another day, hopefully a better one!  Feeling sorry for herself in KY - Kelly