I am having a rotten day today.  Had to go get some medical stuff done before my insurance leaves me.  That has not been worked out, so I am doing everything at once.  That sucks.  Then my son came home, he is off this week for fall break.  I called him and left two messages and he didnt call me back.  Phone not working right.   Glenn called me before that to say that Wes called him to see what he was doing.  He is going in and spending the night with him, but really, his girlfriend lives nearby so we all know who he is really planning on seeing. Glenn was so hateful on the phone.  The only thing I have ever asked is that he speak with me about the kids before he makes plans.  He so erratic and not involved that he thinks, when he has a whim, he just call and it is how he has planned.  That just upsets me.  The stress of it all....overwhelming today.  My son and I got into an argument because I told him that Anna's father needed to know about him.  Her dad thinks she is too young to have a boyfriend and does not know about Wes.  Talked to both Anna and him, and told them that we live in a small town and her father will find out and it will be worse than if they told him. He just accuses me of trying to run his life.  It has turned out that Dad is fun and I am telling him what to do all the time.  I told him that I am his mother and that I have only done what I think is best for him his whole life.  Glenn has been working on him each of the three times he has had him overnight in the last three months (pathetic) promising him this and that..and hell what almost 14 year old boy would not want to live somewhere where there is no rules and promises of all kinds of crap.  What I offer is guidance and love.....Glenn is working very hard to split the children up...and although I dont think that would ever happen because it is not in there best interest, I am so afraid that Wes will resent me for that.  It has been so hard on him - all of us - but that father son thing and the respect involved their...well, I just dont know. He takes his frustration out on me all the time, while Sara is just the opposite...mother daughter thing I imagine....I cried in front of Wes  - it just came out....I feel so lost today.  Sara is in Florida, Wes with Glenn, and here I am....lots of friends etc.  No family here however, and I am really in no shape to be with friends..so here I am writing by pity party.  Hopefully this will help me.  I know I will have these day...but god...they are excruciating at best.  I want this to be over and done with.  I am sick of it all.  I want me and the kids to be a family - whatever we define that to be on our own.  I think I have enough on my shoulders, at least for today.  Just had to get that out...........Kelly