Well, I need to write the voicemail message my STBX left me Friday am.  He called 5 times starting at 8.  I rejected all the calls as I am not having any conversation regarding us until we meet with the lawyers again before our trial starts on the 17th.  He said, in a very errogant tone......"YOU may have just missed the most important phone call of you ENTIRE LIFE......I have a proposal that you and I get back together for the kids, and for finances....you and I will come along...I cant even imagine spending the rest of my life without you...cant do it.  I am sober Kelly.  Give me a call if you want to."   Well that was so heartfelt and romantic....I dont know how I kept myself from dialing him up right then and falling back into his pathetic arms...YEAH RIGHT!  Thirty minutes later.....after no response of course, "I take that as a NO - if you can live with it guess I can too!"  What a guy.  The way I figure....either his lawyer or someone else has told him...after his outrageous behavior on Wed in court....you just blew it.  Think he might actually start thinking that.  I am glad for his behavior in the court.  Just helps me.  A friend stopped by last night and told me he called him at 1030 last Sunday and he was wasted.  He asked him what he was doing...he said....Tequila!!!  Now mind you, he is SOBER now.....He also told him that he was not doing drugs anymore.......Gee - think I believe that?  He will never be sober.  Just wanted to share that with you all.  It just gave me another boost up that ladder......Oh, by the way....he then called his girlfriend 7 times that day......LOSER!  Have a great weekend everyone!!   hugs....Kelly