First, thank you all my friends for your messages of support.   I do not know what I would do without people who understand exactly what I am going thru and talking about.  Much appreciated.  Our court date was changed from last Wed until this Wed the 19th.  I used to have time to get one here, but I realize now that my weeks are flying by between work, volleyball with Sara and football with Wes both practices every night and games at least 3 times a week between the two.  When I get home, I get everything done around here and everyone organized for the next day...I dont know how I keep going.  I am starting to run down, dont feel well tonight, hopefully better in the am.  This past week, lets see.  Tues - volleyball and football games on the same night same place thank God.  Glenn came up to me and asked if he could take the kids to the movies on Wed.  I said they had practice.  A friend sitting next to me said "did you smell that?"  I said yes.  He knocked you down with the smell of alcohol.  I said worse than that he is driving like that.  Thurs.  same thing - two games same night same place.  Our cousins were in from Louiville and he sat with his cousin John.  After the games, he told me Glenn was high as a kite and asked him to go to Janets house (the new women in his life).  John said no.  He also told me that Uncle Bill, Glenn uncle by blood, saw him one day in town and said that he smelled of alcohol so bad that Bill thought he would get drunk just from the fumes.  I also talked to a women who knew Janet for 6 years.  She told me this is what she does.  Uses married men for what she can get out of them, but since he left me, he is now a liability for her.  She does not want a lasting relationship - just a use relationship.  She also told me that drugs are involved...although, I already suspected as such.  Today, Sunday, Glenn picked up Sara and Wes and Saras BF and took them to the movies.  He bought Sara a pair of shoes and Wes some posters.  First thing he has bought for them in almost 3 months.  It is amazing how time is flying.  Busy does that I suppose.  When he brought them home...he told me good job on the pool.  I closed and put the cover on it.....first time, and mowed the yard and had it looking ausome.  I have to wonder if that threw him a little, because I know he thinks I cannot possible do everything that he used to do.  Guess what....I did and I can.  He walked to the car and I asked him if there was anything he wanted to talk about and work out amongst ourselved as I was feelilng quite calm.  He said no that he was feeling upset.  I hope it was because everything looked so good here.  I am exhausted from working so hard on everything...but it looks great.  He told me he loved me and would talk to me later.  Yeah right.....I think he just felt bad because he saw that I CAN do this without him for the first time.  It felt wonderful.  I actually felt sorry for him for a moment...then I checked the phone records for the day..and saw that he called her while spending one of the few times he has been with the kids since the beginning.  I cannot believe I actually felt bad for him....I actually thought he focused on our kids for 5 hours.  What a fool I was.  Well....this Wed is the day my friend.  He told me his lawyer laughed out loud at my lawyers response from his lawyer to his demands he made that we will discuss on Wed.  I told him we will see who is laughing on Wed.  I hope it is me.  I truely believe that good will prevail...and I have sacrificed my own pain, feelings, and self needs for that of my children.  That is being a mom....I hppe what comes around goes around on Wed...for him.  Thank you my friends....I will try to do better in checking in more often....thank you again for all the support and words of encouragement..you all mean so much to me you have no idea....will let you know what happens Wed.  Send me prayers ( if you pray) and good energy on the 19th....I will need them....much love......Kelly