Well, lets see.  The weekend was hard.  Sara and Wes were picked up on Sunday to go to their Aunts with Glenn.  Sara did not want to be there, so Glenn brought her home and let Wes spend the night up there without him.  It is about an hour away.  He went back up the next day and got him.  That night, Wes asked me if he had a choice you he lived with.  I knew immediately that Glenn had talked to him once again, trying to pull him from me with promises that he cant keep.  I told Wes that if the judge, after reviewing whatever it is he looks at, may ask the child his choice.  However, after going to parenting class - as required by the court for divorcing parents - that splitting the children is not good for anyone, especially them.  Only 2 times in 7 years has the judge asked children their choice and that was when both parents were so messed up, the judge had to go to the children. I told Wes that the judge would decide the best interest for all involved.  He said things to me just like Glenn has said.  I am furious that he is using Wesley like this.  It threw me into a tailspin of self doubt and anger.  I am better this am after a good cry last night.  I have finally figured out Glenns plan.  He does not want Wesley at all, but he knows that the only scinerio tht he would not have to pay child support is with split custody.  Then, he knows that if this happens I will be forced from our home because I could not afford to stay here.  This is the goal.  He thinks he has it all figured out.  I must regain my faith that there is no judge in the world that would let this happen.  My logical mind says that it wont, but the fear has overtaken me and I must find a way to let that go.  He is bringing me back to court on the 16th as he has done his best to reduce his income, and alot of other things to make it that he does not have enough money because of what he is paying me.  I will meet with my lawyer before this at some point, but not sure when.  I really need reassurance from her.  She gave it to me at our 1st mediation that he is just trying to "buck up" (deer country here...lol) and that everything would be ok.  Why do I know have faith in that.  I am better this am, and will continue to be.  I have to be.  I have to get the fight back.  I just wanted to try to work things out - the 2 of us, as best we could and learn to communicate for the children.  We actually did that on Sunday for a little while.  We started to discuss things.  Then he said...Kelly just let me move back in.  I was floored.  I said that no way would that be possible after what has happened.  For a moment in my mind I thought, well, it took 9 weeks, but he is finally showing some remorse.......The he said, Kelly - Just let me come back and I will take good care of you and the kids...just let me have my girlfriend on the side and I will be discreet.  I could not even speak.  I dont know how I didnt lose it, but I calmly said...Glenn - someday - someone will come into my life who loves me for me, wants to be with only me and not worry about their girlfriend.  Never would I, nor any woman for that matter, sacrifice her life like that.  I told him that living an arrangement like that was not even normal.  He said - Well, I have always been a little different.  He stood up and said - you forget honey - you live in "B" (last name) county and I will be living in this house, with my kids, on this farm...and you will be leaving.  I said that me and the kids are "b's" as well and we are staying right here.  He said he did not want to fight.  Neither one of us raised our voices the whole time......he walked away.  I was sick in my stomach.  After last night, I have released most of the anquish and today is a new day.  I will do anything I have to now to insure me and the kids stability.  I will not talk to him any further unless it is about picking the kids up.  I have tried to do it nice, now I know that it is not possible and I have to put my self preservation, along with our childrens, first.  That is exactly what I am going to do..........God I hate all of this.