Well, tomorow is the day.  Mediation.  My lawyer talked to Glenns lawyer before I met with her on Wed.  She said that Glenn is mad at Bill (his lawyer) because he feels he is paying too much in child support.  Bill told him that this amount was only temporary and that it will be a little higher based on our previous 2 years tax returns and that this is the law.  It is what it is.  A formula.  And Glenn is not exempt.  Glenn didnt like that.  So sorry.  I had a good day today.  Got the house clean all the "chores" done and am planning on going to bed early.  I know I will awake early in anticipation of the day.  We meet at 10.  I have only seen him once in 2 weeks last weekend.  I pray to remain calm.  Everything I want to happend is drawn out and will be able to make small changes so if he agrees we will sign an agreement tomorrow.  The lawyer says if there is time to stew on a contract - that is never good.  I dont know if we will be able to agree on things or not.  I am ready either way.  I just want to get this behind me so I will be able to not have this hanging over my head.  I know everyone knows exactly how I feel if you have gotten to this point.  I want to move forward and get all of these details settled and begin my new life, officially, with my children as a new family.  Does that sound crazy?  I just feel like now, I am in limbo with all of this crap.  Tomorrow will be a big day for my one way or another........10 it starts.  I took care of everything on Wed. so I have nothing to take care of tonight except myself.  Wesley is at a bday party overnight and Sara is here with her boyfriend.  She is going to Louiville tomorrow with her cousin to the Kentucky State Fair - so I know she will have a great time.  Wesley is going to another party overnight tomorrow - so tomorrow night I will be alone to soak the day in.  I hope it goes well..........