Well, the kids are going to a FAMILY function today.  I was invited by his mother to go and I declined, but I did say that it would be a good time to catch up with our kids since he has not seen them since Sunday.  I have accepted what has happened to me, but I will never accept the fact that he is not doing things for or with our kids.  Wes told me last night that they were going with their dad.  I think that is great, however, Glenn has not called to let me know or anything.  I had it set up to go with his parents.  I called his mom last night and asked what the plan is.  She said Glenn is taking them.  I said I had it set up with you, and that she doesnt make plans for the kids without my knowledge.  I told her I thought it was great Glenn was going to take them, but that he needs to call and let me know.  I have to get it across that these people need to quit going thru my kids...even Glenn what little he has done with them.  Our kids dont make the decisions, I do right now as he lost that right when he left this house over a month ago.  Nobody gets that.  His mother is living in Ozzie and Harriet land for Gods sake.  His dad gets it...but he lives with her.  I dont trust her at all.  I find my self not trusting anyone right now except myself.  Wednesday is court day...just initial filing.  I am already nervous, but I have to believe that someone cannot be treated like I have without being accountable for it.  We will see.  I texted Glenn last night for the first time in forever and told him that if he was taking the kids that he needs to ask me first...not his mother and not his kids....but me.  I am not being mean, but dammit I have been here for them everyday.....no one else.  Me and Wes got in an argument last night.  I know he is upset and I am really the only one he can vent to.  He doesnt know what the  big deal is about going with dad.  I told him that wasnt the problem..the problem is everyone is making plans, including you, without letting me know and that was going to stop.  He started saying how dad would do this or that and I said the worst thing I could ever say.  If you want to go live with your dad, then do so.  I am the one that has been doing everything for you and Sara, not dad.  He has not been here at all and I am doing the very best to hold things together and when you fight with me about every little thing, well frankly, I dont have the energy for that.  I just have enought to take care of us and not to argue.  After some time passed, I went and said I was sorry to Wes, that I didnt mean that and that I would miss him terribly.  I cant even believe I said that.  I am so weary and tired of all this crap...and i go do something stupid and hurtful like that.  I am ashamed I said that.......what a mistake.  I feel like I am trying so hard, and Wes just has a horrible attitude right now and I am the only one dealing with that. His father should get the attitude not me.  God give me strength please.