Well, I woke up at 4 am today...had a therapy session to make sure I am still sane...LOL / and I am thank God.  The kids father has not contacted them in 2 days.  I a most upset about that.  I know the alcoholic factor, but I just cant seem to get past that.  The only thing I can do is be here for the kids and keep what is left of this family going.  We are going to a neighbors house tonight, along with 4 other members of the family including his parents.  I have not seen them since I told them I have filed for divorce.  I did talk to my sister in law tonight.  Glenns brother has spoken to them and I have learned that they are truly shocked  by my filing.  Alex, his brother, said why are you shocked?  What did you expect?  Glenn is an adult and the consequences are his responsibility, not Kellys.  I know the family factor and all, but I would like to think I would do the right thing and make sure my son was not taken advantage of.  I am making Glenn a fair deal...and I didnt have to.  But I need to be able to live with myself.  I am still on the high road even thought I get close to the edge sometimes, I always manage to stay up there.  If I did not have children, I would not be fair.  The kids are doing well.  I am planning on taking them to an alateen meeting, at least twice, just so they know that they are not the only teenagers affected by alcohol abuse.  I just want them to be ok.  They are my life.  I love them so much..........