Well, I made it through Sunday.  Thank God.  I actually woke up and felt pretty good Monday am.  Of course, back to work.  I have alot of support from my friends and everyone who comes into the office.  That is very good for me.  I made it through today too, so another day under my belt so to speak.  I go to court for our first appearance on August 8th.  I am trying really hard to not think about that yet too much as it makes me nervous.  There is still a part of me that cannot believe this is all happening, even after all this time.  I go to counseling for ME tomorrow, and that always helps.  The kids seem to be doing ok.  They are strong and they sure make me strong.  I cant imagine not having them in my life.  Their dad is certainly missing out on alot of time with them.  He rarely sees or calls them.  He did see Sara last night for about 20 minutes.  That seems to be his time limit.  He did ask me for some paperwork last night.  I said everything was at my lawyers.  I have spent 3 weeks getting everthing together and brought everything with me at my first meeting.  He needs to get so much together, he has no idea.  I told him that I wasnt doing another thing for him as long as I live.  I took care of paying all the bills, paperwork, etc.  He is about to learn that there is alot to take care of.  Oh well, his loss.  What a selfish person he has become.  He acts as if nothing is wrong.  It just burns me up.  What comes around goes around baby!!