Well, today is my 18th wedding anniversary.  We had the best wedding and outside party on the farm that you ever saw.  He got his papers from the courthouse yesterday, and of course, not too happy.  He still doesnt have any remorse for what he has done.  You live with someone for 23 years and you think you know all their is to know.  But I didnt.  I have learned so much about him over the last month, that it makes me sick.  He has such an arrogant attitude right now.  He, in his mind, thinks that what he has done was not that bad and that if I had not told our children, after giving him 3 opportunites to do it himself, that he would have come home and taken care of me and that everything would have been fine.  I told him....what makes you think I wanted you back after having a relationship with someone else for over a year.  What did you think was going to happen when people found out?  God, I just think he should at least feel bad and he doesnt yet.  My sister tells me that it is the alcoholic thinking and that I cant understand it but that I have to let it go.  Until he chooses to get help, I cannot help him anymore.  One day, I hope he realizes what a great family he has thrown away.  What a waste.....My kids will be fine because they have me for a mom.  I will be fine because I have 2 great kids.  We are good for each other like that!!!  Happy Anniversay Glenn.....it will be our last.