Well, today is Tuesday.  This morning my brother in law had a surprise for me.  I really didnt know what to expect, but like the good sport that I am, I went with him to our surprise destination.  He bought me a swedish massage!  I have never had a massage before.  Let me tell you.  If any of you have to opportunity to try one - my advice would be to do it!  What a wonderful experience.  I have never been so relaxed in all my life.  What a wonderful wonderful gift he gave me.  I never do for myself - well between the kids and my stbx there really was no time left for me.  An hour completely taken care of by someone else.  Working out all the stress....WOW.  I feel like a new women.  All I can tell  you is lookout when I get back home.  I think it will be time to kick ass and take names.  At least that is what my goal will be.  Just getting away from all that reminds me of my life with Glenn has done so much for me.  I did not realize how reallly painful it is to see "our life" all around us.  This is my week to get back on my feet, realize what is important to me now, and make a move forward for the kids and I.  They are having such a blast.  We went to the beach yesterday.  What a great time.  We have voted to go back there again tomorrow.  The ocean has a way of bringing peace to you just be being next to it.  I am having a hard time seeing families togethers...you know, like mine used to be.  Mom, Dad and kids.  I look at them and I see the loss in my own life and my kids life.  I know that this will get easier.  To see my kids smile and having fun - well, I thought that would take them forever.  They really are resiliant.  Much stronger than I have given them credit for.  To think that I really thought about not coming here.  I was scared to leave the house, worried about this or that....blah blah blah.  I am so glad that my sister send me a ticket.  This has truly been a turning point for me.  I cannot believe that it is Tuesday already.  We will be back last Sat. pm.  Lots to do the rest of the week.  The time is flying by.  I know that this week is the week before the rest of my new life.  I am concentrating on getting to a good place in my heart.  You know how that heart can tug on you all the time.  Each day is getting easier.  Well, thats all for now.  Off to a tennis game.  Hope everyone is doing well.  Thanks for listening.