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I really feel like I need to. I cant handle my emotional pain and need an outlet for it, I  cant hold it all in, trying not to give in but it might not be held off forever and when I do then its gonna hurt bad, it needs to be bad pain to mask the emotional pain I feel right now. Whats wrong with me?? I am in counseling, should be getting better but obviously not. I'm broke and cant do anything about it. I want to die too. There will be no more pain then will there