Numb

I feel so numb today, for some reason.
I know now that I'm not loved by one of the people that matter the most.
He's just so apathetic towards me I don't know how I can change and be the happy person he wants.
It's not easy being happy when inside your screaming so loud even your inner voice is getting all croaky.
Maybe, like I have been thinking for a while, he's part of the problem, not the solution.