Update
Well back on the Cymbalta as I said in my last journal. Overall helps some but doesn't seem to be addressing my headaches this round like it was when I was previously on it. Also still have to take the ibprofen even if I don't have a headache since my hands will start aching horribly.
Still processing through this divorce. Feel like I'm going to be stuck living with my parents FOREVER! Gotta a little break from them recently since they went on a trip. If it was just my mom I could stay here forever, but my stepdad and I bash heads. Got a part-time job working as a desk clerk at a motel in town. It's going pretty well, brief periods of frantic activity followed by periods of boredom. Still not making enough to move out though. Everyone wanting rooms right now wants weekly rates right now since there are several different projects going on in town right now including the BP turnover. I keep having to give directions to the casino and laundrymat. Some of the men flirt with me which can be fun, know that some of them are far from home and lonely so I'm willing to give them a little conversation.
Don't know what to do with the relationship side of my life at this point. And yes, I realize I only left my husband a month ago even if I felt divorced before that. Can't imagine ever getting married and sharing finances again with another person. I got so badly burned on that score. Just wish I could find a relationship where it's like the first few months for the whole relationship! Sick of feeling like I do most/all of the work in relationships! My ex got the divorce papers last week and he still takes no responsibility for anything in the relationship, claims he "worked on it". Yeah, he went to church twice with me and went to work, real working there!!
Considering contacting one of my exes and seeing if he still has any feelings for me. He lives in Texas so nothing major is ever going to happen (I'm so past restarting my life/career), worst case scenario he has no feelings and tells me to go to hell, middle case scenario "friends with benefits", best case has feelings but not going to graduate to real "live" relationship. I'm waiting on this until at least my divorce is final though.
Anyway that is what is up with me in all its' confusingness!
Still processing through this divorce. Feel like I'm going to be stuck living with my parents FOREVER! Gotta a little break from them recently since they went on a trip. If it was just my mom I could stay here forever, but my stepdad and I bash heads. Got a part-time job working as a desk clerk at a motel in town. It's going pretty well, brief periods of frantic activity followed by periods of boredom. Still not making enough to move out though. Everyone wanting rooms right now wants weekly rates right now since there are several different projects going on in town right now including the BP turnover. I keep having to give directions to the casino and laundrymat. Some of the men flirt with me which can be fun, know that some of them are far from home and lonely so I'm willing to give them a little conversation.
Don't know what to do with the relationship side of my life at this point. And yes, I realize I only left my husband a month ago even if I felt divorced before that. Can't imagine ever getting married and sharing finances again with another person. I got so badly burned on that score. Just wish I could find a relationship where it's like the first few months for the whole relationship! Sick of feeling like I do most/all of the work in relationships! My ex got the divorce papers last week and he still takes no responsibility for anything in the relationship, claims he "worked on it". Yeah, he went to church twice with me and went to work, real working there!!
Considering contacting one of my exes and seeing if he still has any feelings for me. He lives in Texas so nothing major is ever going to happen (I'm so past restarting my life/career), worst case scenario he has no feelings and tells me to go to hell, middle case scenario "friends with benefits", best case has feelings but not going to graduate to real "live" relationship. I'm waiting on this until at least my divorce is final though.
Anyway that is what is up with me in all its' confusingness!
Replies
Definitely wait until your divorce is final. Make sure that part of your life is completely over before you start something new. Us Fibromites can only handle so much at one time! Take it easy and stop beating yourself up for living with the \'rents. I understand you don\'t get along with your stepdad, but you\'re starting a new life, and it takes time. You\'ll get there! *HUGS*
Be friends first with a man, if you can be friends then take it to the next level but wait until you are over the pain of the failure of your marriage or you\'ll carry that baggage into the next relationship. Try to pick a diffferent sort of man to your usual type,that may make a difference also, enjoy the chatting and flirting, it\'s good for your ego and costs nothing. take your time and just get right with yourself and all the best to you, J