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Finally trying to eat something... Feel like sleeping but to afraid to. If I sleep it means I'll have to awaken... Things will still be the same I'll still be here... Another day of pain ahead... 
I got invited to Kingdom Hall for a program in sign... I'm kinda iffy about it all but I said I'd go. Witnesses don't really like people outside of their group let alone a lesbian... 
My mind is floating but racing at the same time...
Ugh... here go more tears...