Day ONE!

I used to do a journal and found it so helpful to see me on paper.  I always felt that I could say anything to the paper and did.  Well here we go again.  I don't like feeling limited and I HATE HATE HATE it when things don't get done and I live in a family that doesn't tend to DO unless I am there to spear head it.  When I don,t feel up to it then it just doesn't get done...like the lawn, take garbage out, clean the house, put the laundry away. etc.  I am very bothered by it...but will admit I am probably my own worst enemy.  I do NOT let my pain show I just work thru it.  My Mother was the same and was out and about ALWAYS looking her best even though she felt like hell!  Most people don't have a clue I am exhausted and in pain and feel like I am about to drop.  I need to slow down and I just can't seem to give myself permission.