Well, here we go ladies...I have a feeling this is going to be a challenging weekend for all of us.  I want you all to know how very much I value each and every one of you and how much you mean to me and my sanity!  I'm sure we will all have our times of melting down and our times of suppressing our feelings as much as possible for the sake of those around us.   My sister came up last night and is staying until Sunday evening.  We are going with my other sister and Mother to a tea at Mom's church this afternoon.  This evening my neice will also come up and a friend is coming over so we will be busy with a house full of people and 4 small dogs.  Tomorrow we will all go up to my Mom's church and attend with her and take her to lunch.  It will be nice to be busy and with family but it will be hard to hold things together that long.  I also have to find some time to be with my grandbabies because they still are the reason I hold things together and keep going.  I usually have them here with me during the weekend and it's only Saturday morning and I'm having "grandkid withdrawal".  lol   I am missing Lance so much too.  He is 800 miles away so I cannot even get a real hug from him.  I will be going to visit him the end of June though, so that keeps me going.  I keep replaying last years Mother's Day.  My sister was up and we were getting ready to leave to go to church with my Mom.  The phone rang and it was Clinton.  That was unusual because he usually didn't call, just waited for me to show up at his house, as I always did.  Anyway, he called to tell me that he really appreciated me, the fact that I was always there for him and always honest with him.  He told me I was the only adult in his life that he completely trusted and that had never let him down.  He had told me that before in general conversation but he actually made a phone call to tell me that.  He just wasn't a "phone call" person.  It meant so much to me then and it is something that I have that I hold on to with everything that I have in me.  I miss him so much... I am sending you each a HUGE hug and will be praying for and thinking of each of you as we walk through this time together...love, hugs and prayers for peace and comfort...Lynn