I know we are all struggling so much during this Christmas Season.  It is so hard to know how to get through this joyous time when there is so much pain in our hearts.  I try to keep myself on a "different plane" and experience this season through our special musical program at church and through my grandchildren's eyes.  When I actually have to become personally involved as in shopping, putting up the tree etc then I really struggle.  I'm sure all of you here can relate to the challenge of figuring out how to get through this part of our new journey.  I keep trying to visualize our children as they are depicted in the story written by some of our special Mother's on ForMomsOnly.  I just want to tell you all how very much you mean to me and how much this site has helped me get through so far.  I continue to pray for our strength and peace and the assurance that our children are well and at peace.