I don't seem to be very good at keeping up with the journaling thing.  Sometimes I think I just sound to "down" and other times I am just so busy.  I do check on here at least a couple times a day to try to keep up with my friends.  They are finally working on repairing the floors in my house.  They have worked 2 days and have all but the bathroom and utility area done.  I think that will probably take another 2 days.  After that the have to tack the carpet back down and then I will have to get my friend's husband to put the vinyl down in the bathroom and utility area.  I will be glad to have my house put back together after over a month!!!!  We have also added another night to our Praise and Worship practice so we can get our Christmas music together.  Wednesday night is church night and everynight I go right after work to help the grandkids with their homework.  I am one tired cookie, that's for sure.  It does keep my mind occupied I guess.  I'm trying to stay positive about the holidays but I think I will really have to work at it.  I miss Clinton so much and I just can't believe he has been gone so long.  I have good times and bad times and I know you all know just what all this is about.  It's a dirty, rotten hand we have been dealt.  I will continue to remind myself this holiday season that I am so thankful for the years I had with Clinton and all the wonderful times we shared.  I am truly blessed to have been his Mother and to have had his love, trust and friendship.  He blessed me with 4 beautiful grandchildren and they are the best gift he could have ever given me.   I pray for us everyday and I love you all and wish you strength and peace especially through the next couple months.  Thanks to all of you who are so wonderfully supportive and offer kind and caring words of encouragement.  I don't think I would be where I am now if I hadn't found this site and all my new wonderful friends...love...Lynn