It has been 23 weeks since my son was electrocuted, which stopped his heart, then fell from the ladder and hit his head, which crushed his skull.  It happened on a Monday at 11:00 a.m.  I cannot tell you how I loathe this day and time!!!!  I keep thinking that it will get easier or at least less painful... but not so far.  When you give birth to your baby and they lay him/her in your arms you just know that you will always do whatever it takes to protect the precious gift you have been given.  I just hate it that I was not able to do that!!!!!  I continue to do what needs to be done but sometimes I just don't see the point to any of it.  Thank heavens for my grandkids, my family and my friends here.