Dear Clinton-it's been 15 weeks since you physically left us.  The kids and I still miss you so desperately!  This was a long weekend and I had the boys Friday night and Saturday half the day then they went to your Dad's.  I had Kaite from Saturday afternoon until this evening.  We picked the boys up before noon and went down to Cascades Park and spent the afternoon.  They wanted to hike up to the waterfall where you took them so we did.  It's been so dry here that there was no water.  We went to the graveyard and changed the flowers from summer to fall ones.  Josiah and Kaite both left pictures and notes for you.  I'm trying to do all the fun things with them that you used to do.  We all miss you so very much but we talk about you all the time so you are always with us.  I called Jackie and talked to her tonight and she is doing well.  I wish she wasn't so far away and I could see her more.  I know you felt the same way.  My heart still aches so much for you, but I rejoice knowing that you are in heaven and you have no pain or troubles.  I will always be there for your children and do what you would want for them.  I am so very thankful that I still have a part of you in them.  I love you and I miss you more than you could ever imagine.  Some day when my tasks on earth are fulilled I will rejoin you and that will be glorious...until then I hold you tightly in my heart.  My love forever...Mom