I don't know what heaven is like but I believe that what the bible says is true, that it is a most glorious place.  I sing on my church's praise and worship team and I know the wonderful feeling I have when I completely focus on worshiping God and I can only imagine that feeling will be so intensified when I get to heaven.  I know that is where Clinton is now and I know he has no hurts or sorrows.  A wise man whom I trust said he believes that our loved ones in heaven can see us through a very dense filter that keeps anything hurtful from being seen by them.  That gives me comfort too.  I know that Clinton cannot come back to me but that I can be reunited with him when it is my time to leave this earth if I keep focused on Jesus and walk in His ways.  Last night I didn't see or have any of my grandkids and I was at a loss as to what to do with myself.  I just mostly sat numb.  When I went to bed I could feel myself slipping into sorrow and I began to cry.  The good thing is, it wasn't a gut wrenching cry of devastation but a lonley cry.  I believe that is healing also.  I know we all ask the question, "How can life just keep going on as if nothing happened?" and "Will I ever get over this horrible loss?"  I don't know those answers but I know that I have to keep going through this horrible season in my life and not let myself get bogged down and stay here.  Will I ever be the same person or have the same life that I had before I lost my precious son?  No.  Do I know that God has a plan to prosper me and not to harm me?  Yes.  Please continue to pray for my healing and I will continue to pray for yours.  Love and hugs to you all.